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Does anyone that grew up without the help of the internet or cable tv ever wonder how their life would have been different? I mean, I was right on the cusp of that era I suppose. I was very interested in computers, but I was a high school Junior before a class was even available to learn about them. Even then it was more about what a 0 and a 1 meant in computer language. It was all about the MAC back then too. I think that is all schools could afford. I sit and watch TV, while sittin on my laptop just rummaging around the internet and wonder if my life would have been different had I been able to use these tools to my advantage. I think the generation that is growing up now has the most amazing tools ready and waiting for them. They can research careers, learn about the world around them. They can grow up in a small town, but know what it's like to live in the city. I've seen and heard about so many amazing careers out there in the last few years. I've researched careers, searched for jobs, looked for other places to live, researched homes in far away places. Imagine what we could have done in HS to research colleges? Learn about jobs. I just don't think we were given enough information. Maybe that was just me, and the way I grew up. I don't know, maybe. But maybe our counselor didn't really give me all he could considering I wasn't even close to the top of my class, I'm probably lucky I graduated. However, up until last year October, I was probably making more money than a lot of people I graduated with. I had potential, I had the drive to get out and DO something with my life, but I didn't have the support. Is it sad that I think the internet and TV could have been my support 15 years ago? I think it's sad, but I think it's true.
Anyway, although I'm pretty strict about how my kids use the internet and what they watch on TV I'm greatful that if they have a question about something that I don't know about, I'll be able to give them the tools to learn about it, and I'm also greatful that I'll be learn more about them at the same time.

How do you think your life would have been different...if you are old enough to know what it was like before the internet?

Tonight I watched my son play basketball. In a game. Well, the 10 year old version of a game anyway. It's painful I have to say. It makes me wonder where I went wrong, and if I didn't go wrong then what is going on with my kid? He is a great kid! But he can't play sports to save his life. If his life depending on catching a basketball when thrown to him, well, we shouldn't go there. Seriously, what the hell? I wonder if tomorrow, when I go to watch my daughter in a swim meet if it'll be the same thing? She's much more competative, and athletic, but we'll have to wait and see. She competes pretty well when playing T-ball, but this is different, it's an actual sport, that we have to travel 2 hours to get where we are going. I'm disappointed in myself when I think this way. Especially when I think this way about my kids. My husband isn't like this, he's super competative and so am I when I actually play sports. Where does my son get his wimpyness from? I'm going to hold out for puberty and see what happens with this kiddo.
Also, I'm cold. Really really cold. So cold my toes and fingers actually hurt. And being cold pisses me off. REALLY pisses me off. I lose all patience and control when I'm this cold. Living in Northern WI, I should be used to it by now, but I'm not. I want it to go away. No below zero temps for me please.
It's almost Christmas...but before that my baby is almost 8. I can't believe she's almost 8 years old. Where did this time go? What if I wanted another baby? I wasn't even thinking about being ready for that until now, and now it's too late. Even if I wanted to make that happen, I can't b/c I had my husband neutered. But either way, I can't have one because it's too long since I had my last baby...did I mention she's almost 8? Wow.