DVR me ASAP

The other day I was driving somewhere and in the car in front of me I could have sworn I saw the passenger smack the driver in the face. I was shocked to say the least, and my first instinct was to hit the rewind button. Now, before we go too much further into my weirdness, I have to say that I ended up next to that car in another lane and found the occupants to be laughing like crazy, so, they are good. Now, to my craziness...the fact that I thought to rewind a moment of life struck me later as both odd and frightening. Having a DVR at home, on our TV, has been awesome I have to say. Pausing, rewinding, recording, and the best part...fast forwarding through commercials! However, I use it so much (yes, I watch way to much TV) that I've found myself wishing or wanting to use DVR in real life. Sometimes it's when someone says something to me that I didn't hear...rewind. Or when I'm at work, learning a new piece of information...record. When something horrible is happening, like an accident or a fall....pause. Or when I have to do things I don't want to do, like grocery shopping, or driving...fast forward. Although all of those things would be super helpful in life, once I really thought about it I thought about how much I'd miss. If I have to ask for someone to repeat themselves, oh well! It might spark further conversation! When I'm learning something new at work...well, no matter what I'd like to record that! When something horrible is happening, and I'd like to pause, I'd probably stay paused forever so I didn't have to deal with the pain and when I'm doing those things I don't want to do, like drive or grocery shop, I'm missing a whole lot of much needed ME time. So, sometimes it would be cool, but imagine that power in the hands of everyone! We wouldn't know which way was up, down, around or even what time it was! I hate not knowing what time it is. Guess it's best to just live life as we have it coming...it all balances out in the end.

Time for some changes

So many things are changing, I may have a panic attack. I can't believe that it's been a month since I posted, it's been crazy in the Piller home. School has started...and been put on pause. Kids went back to school Sept 1st (YAY!) and I've had a couple of weeks of peace around the house. It's kind of lonely, although I wouldn't really say that out loud. And, today, I just finished my last final for the summer courses, phew! This was a tough semester. I'm glad it's over, but I only have a couple of weeks before the next fall quarter starts. Speaking of fall, that is changing too. The trees across the road are starting to change colors. It's a tough time to catch, those leaves changing. If you are lucky you get a couple of good days to revel in how beautiful the change can be before they attack the ground in full force (and the sounds of leaf blowers take the place of lawn mowers). The biggest change of all is my going back to work. Granted I've worked here and there, filling in for people and even bartending, but tomorrow I go back to actual work. Actual work. Customer service work. In an office, with other people. I'm having a bit of agoraphobia I believe and I'm sure to be homesick. Being home for 1 year and 11 months probably didn't help, but I think I may have always been that way and I just pushed myself to seem otherwise.
Changes are good. Changes are scary. Changes keep things moving and interesting. Of all the things changes are they are inevitable and must be embraced...the alternative is to be left in the past. Taking a deep breath now, putting the panic attack aside and enjoying the last day of non-working freedom. Enjoy fall!